Tough situations...

Tough situations...

I don't really know how to start the whole mess, that i'm living in these days…

My family is going through a lot…

Almost every person from my whole family has a bigger problem…

The heading of all the problems is my Grandfather…

He had a big, complicated surgery, and since that he didn't recover very well…

This brings nervous, agressive, sad, and hopeless people with it… 

my Grandma is very hopeless, and unpatient,.. she doesn't understand so much things the doctors tell her… 

my Dad (it is his father) just can't take the whole situation and is very grumpy and nervous…

it's just,.. too much at the situation, and it makes the woods very grey for me… it's sad, but i can't really enjoy the woods at this time… 

I headed out today, and it was all rainy,.. it fitted very well for my situation, so i just walked in the rain, and let my feelings flow.. it was hard, but in the end i felt better…

David went with me in the woods, and was very silent today,… we're all thinking about the future, and of course we hope for my Grandfather to recover soon, but it will be a very hard and long trip and i don't know if he will ever be the same again…

I keep him in my mind for what i know him….

Him and my little brother

yeah, thats me, and thats what he did every time i visited them...

thats me again, i also loved him as a child

Tears are rushing down my face as i write this,..

I just love him, and hopefully he will recover very well, and fast…

xoxo

Birdy..